Wednesday, December 26, 2007

a special announcement brought to you on behalf of christmas

i need to try in the morning before the coffee passes my lips and stirs up the neurons that scrape across the cheesegrater that makes up my mind. my clock doesn't work and in succession every light i hit on blows off and stays that way because how many of me does it take to change a lightbulb? none apparently i don't care leave them off. inspiration inspiration little glimmers coming back little sparks of light where there havent been in quite some time but the trick is heres the trick- just try to get a grasp on those slippery little shits its not easy i tell you. and heres the thing on another subject because i cant stick with just one subject because they all melt in and out amongst one another all the time- heres the thing- i know what i want and i know what i dont. its true ive finally figured it out. i want what i dont think is possible and i dont want it when i get it. typical right? right. exactly its true and ive always known it and nothing is changing that truth that ive noticed. its always been there and i fear it always will. and yes i know i know i know its not the right way to think i need to take off the shit-colored glasses of perception so to speak as they say and let go of the mentality the blame the role i place myself into again and again right. right right right i know i know but how do i make the know into the feel into the truth? maybe its just time to shut up.

6 comments:

sweaty toes said...

christmas poo. i always want to shut up but it just makes me talk faster ramblier runaway train speak.

merry christmas murl!

murl said...

you too mcsweatyton! oh man you are right the shit just speeds up and gets nuttier...

Maat B' Oenito said...

Time to shut up indeed, but in the way that 'shutting-up' is the opposite of 'shutting-down', ya know?

My brain is an audience of baboons in evening ware staring out of my eye holes in complete, enraptured silence as the show of my life unfolds, commercial free, transporting their attention towards the always eminent final scene and the rolling credits and, then, the black screen.

Yeah, I don't really know what I'm talking about either . . .

murl said...

whoa baboons in evening ware staring out your eye holes. that was an intense visual i just got there.

jimh said...

Murl!
"how do i make the know into the feel into the truth?"
Love that part. I need help there too.

kalipornia said...

whatever you do, do NOT shut up. unless, like benito sez... you see it as the opposite of shutting down.

then i say, do NOT shut down.

i love you. all of you.

(can't wait to see you it's been far too long for people like you and me)