i have been a crazyladyperson for several weeks now due to the horror-producing anxiety stress aneuyrsm that is the cardiac portion of this semester. altho i guess i can't use the word aneurysm anymore in that sense now that i know what it is.
ahh fuck i just want this school shit to be OVER. i am so sick of living in a world of stress and anxiety attacks on the regular. whenever i am studying i am thinking of other things i could do to further distract myself and every waking minute that im not studying i am guilting myself and telling myself what a goddamned whore i am for not studying. it is pretty vicious inside my head these days.i talk about it so much that my friends are all like oh i'm sure you're fine, you are ALWAYS studying. what they don't seem to understand is that i am alwaying TALKING and OBSESSING about it, and spending ridiculous amounts of time at home alone not studying kind of like what i'm doing right now, and the actual time i am studying is pretty minimal. i read 2 paragraphs and i'm like WHEW i deserve a 3 hour break! ok time for more coffee.
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ick! good luck with that. i really love that photo.
hahaha I am imagining you looking in different directions without moving your neck. I know, it's probably not funny.
I'd blame the pulled muscle on stress . . . not that it helps anything. Maybe one of the three hour breaks should consist of a warm bath and a muscle relaxer?
I'd probably trade a pinchy, fucked-up neck for the hundred mosquito bites I have on my left ankle.
oh honey i'm glad you did well on your test.
please let me know what i can do to help.
if it means anything i think that most people have the 20:1 fucking around to studying ratio... i think you may just tend to be a little harder on yourself than most.
i love you and i'm glad the cardiac part is over.
don't forget to eat your veggies.
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