my brother just recently introduced me to Smoosh. i believe they are 12 and 14 now. here is one of their videos:


i dont know, i think they fuckin rock.

heavy head.
so drained.

i was listening to Mogwai while driving home from Philly the other day. it put me into some sort of meditative state that i liked very much.

i felt so positive and hopeful and creative and inspired.

how much was real and true?
how much was inspired by the coffee?
-that i supposedly quit earlier this week due to its anxiety-producing effects-

how much was simply because of the lack of traffic and therefore road-rage wellings from the depths of my dark little heart?

dont mind me its late and like i said im drained tired and bitter.

i should be grateful, right? my family is alive and healthy and not starving or homeless or violent. everyone has their shit.

goddamn all my should bes would be could bes.